nila-tala

I feel like crying.... I'm alone in the room I share with my fiance while he sits downstairs doing whatever the hell he wants because everything is more important than I am, including his little brother's dsi..... i'm so tired of living like this, lost and alone and feeling ugly and fat, and unwanted ever since the miscarrage..... most of the time it seems like he would be happier if I just fell off the face of the planet.... My Dehamon, my love, would rather use porn than me..... I just don't know what to do anymore.... I'm numb... my family hates me and I live with him, If I leave him or he leaves me I have nowhere to go and sometimes I w

So, Um, Yes, well, as the title of this journal states, I am back, having returned from the slums of epic nothing-ness.... I am STILL looking for ideas for writings... Seriously, throw anything at me, anything at all.... seriously.... Oh, and I've got a LOT to put up, it just might take me awhile... so yeah.... Ok, so that about wraps that up.... Your Loveable Host, Ni Ni

So, yeah, life is better than it was before... *^^* I'm still looking for commissions! Seriously guys, any poetry or prose or EDITING you need done, let's me knows!!! ((I'll be uber cheap, I swear!)) Also, I am on FA now, so If anyone on there is here, look me up, I have a nice into prose on there (Nila_Tala on FA)!!! Much love from crazytown, Ni Ni